One year ago today I was laid off from my job at an advertising agency in downtown Nashville. Goodness, I remember it so clearly. It seems like yesterday when I was sitting across from the CFO as her mouth was moving, but my mind was wondering off towards new dreams and visions. As I left the building and was walking to my car I had no idea what the next day, week, month or even year would look like for me. At the time, I was in a music group called COLMANblue and we were really hoping to move things ahead. I was hopeful in the midst of the unknown.
Let me back this up. It was Easter 2009 and our pastor was talking about purpose. I sat in my chair that Sunday and really examined my life. Was I really doing what I was called to do or was I putting my hands to things that I selfishly wanted to obtain? Pursing my own dreams? My own visions? The last thing that I wrote in my journal that day was:
“I don’t want to be a person doing things that God has never called me to do in the first place.”
So, as I was hearing the dreaded words of being let go- just three days after Easter- my mind went to that place in my journal. I was hearing the words “Now Go. Do what I have called you to do.”
So much has happened in this ONE YEAR. Never before have I felt more in line with what I am being called to do with my life. The funny thing is, it hardly involves what I have been trained to do since I was a little girl. The music that I had been pursuing had come to an end and I found myself in a whole new place, but never alone. I am being REFINED. REDEFINED. SHARPENED. TRUSTED. LOVED.
So, I sit here in my office away from the office [Starbucks] and I write to you to tell you….to listen. Be aware. Be intentional. Dream. Take chances. Believe. Have faith. Life is fast and ever changing. God dreams much bigger dreams than we could ever begin to touch, and honestly our dreams don’t even come close to the magic He desires for us. He’s not even effected by time frames….how amazing is that!?!?
“God trains the called, he doesn’t necessarily call the trained.”
I am a people person. I love a good conversation. I value relationships. All of these things are what I get to experience on a daily basis with photography. Yes, I love nothing more than a ridiculously radical photo, but first and foremost….its YOU! It’s an honor for me to really get into the lives of people…..with guards down…..being real and authentic. This is where true magic begins.
The opportunities that have come my way in just the last few months have completely blown my mind. I’ll be announcing a few of those things later this week. It just amazes me how quickly things come together when you are doing what you’re called to do. I whole heartedly believe in proper alignment….being at the right place, at the right time, doing the right things with the right people. Try it! Life is just better this way…….
Is anyone else out there hearing what I am saying? Where are you at in this season of life?
Be encouraged! And lets move mountains! I dare you.
p.s the CFO that laid me off….later hired me to photograph her daughters wedding. Seriously?!? Life always works out.
Mark Rampulla - Great post giving honor to your amazing Dad!
melissa weymouth - I am so blessed to have a awesome Dad that loved us so deeply. I am going to miss him so much. I am so thankful to have such great memories of Dad. He was so proud of his girls. Thank you Lord Jesus for giving me a wonderful loving father.
Dad you will be missed
I Love You xoxox
allister ann - i love you more than words can express…
kelli, your heart is so strong and beautiful
your father i know is so proud of you every day that you are following your hearts passions- that each moment you capture in our lifes history is a reminder of a life of love that surrounds us.
can’t wait to see you soon little bird
XO
the whyte house - such a beautiful post.
i lost my dad at age 13 and have spent almost 17 years without him. though i understood and was grateful that my dad didn’t have to endure pain anymore, it hurt. immensely. it’s been a life experience that has helped me grow, to not take things for granted and help others with their loss. now, after sharing 15 years of life and laughter with my stepdad, i am now having to watch his body and mind fall apart. i look forward to the day that he will no longer have to suffer, as well, but it breaks my heart to have to face that loss again. my heart aches for you and your family during this time, but rejoices with your dad’s new home address. you guys are in our prayers.
susie
Jaime - Beautiful, sweet Kelli….so well said sweetie! This was beautiful on so many levels!!! Hugs!!!!
Alison Hillenbrand - Such a sweet post Kelli!! You are such a good daughter. Bringing honor to both your earthly and heavenly Father. I know they both delight in you and the woman you have become. Keep encouraging others with your story, there are broken people everywhere who need to hear this good news!!
Love you!!
Heather - I am SOOOO proud of you for having the courage to do this video and post it. This is going to have such a huge impact on SO many people. Your perspective on this whole situation has been nothing short of AMAZING!!!! You always find the good and positive in every situation…. but in this particular one, you can TRULY tell the LOVE and PEACE of God on your life.
I love you sweet friend. Use that journal to write all these stories down too. It’s your Daddy journal π
xoxo
Becka - Kelli, thank you so much for sharing this video. I so enjoyed hearing more about the person your dad was. Thank you for your transparency, for sharing your heart and your story. I am so sorry dear friend for what you’ve gone through the last month but am encouraged to hear your perspective of God’s faithfullness, and how is turning ashes into beauty in you and through you.
Loved seeing you today…actually really wanted to ask you about your dad and how you’ve been doing but didn’t want to take you out of “working mode”.(= Thank you again for posting these sweet reflections….much love!!
amelialyon - Wow, what a sweet tribute to your dad! I know this seems tough, but there is a new found peace in all of this if you can just trust that God has a plan for everything and we are all a big part of it. I pray for comfort to be with you at this time. The first year is the hardest, let yourself cry when you feel like it, then dry your eyes and continue forward. Take care!
Donna - What a wonderful tribute to your dad…love the photos – makes me want to get some of me and my dad NOW! Saying a prayer for you!
Amy Conner - You are so so strong and wonderful for sharing your heart with us. It’s wonderful how you continue to honor him!! Love you!
kelly ann - your dad lived life the right way – by taking time for others. that is so beautiful and so inspiring, and the world is a better place because of him. i’m so sorry for your loss, but know that your dad is having the greatest time ever in heaven right now! how rad is that?! you seem like a truly dear soul… i just love your blog & your photographs, and i’m sending you prayers that your heart is comforted every single day.
Kate McNamara - Dear Kelli,
I am so, so, so dearly sorry about your dad. The way your dad lived his life is an absolutely beautiful testament to Christ and the goodness of a person. I want to live better now. You are so beautiful for making this video and saying your heart. You and your dad have really impacted me in such a meaningful way and I thank YOU. I have never met you before but I am friends with Tammy and David. If there is anything at all that you EVER need, please let me know. I will be praying for your heart to just BEAM π with all the memories and love your dad and you shared. I will be praying that you just feel his spirit all the time and feel a peace and grace from Christ. Girl, you are so, so lucky you have memories and love from an amazing man. I work at Sweet CeCe’s in downtown Franklin and if there is ANYTHING you need help with for your new business, please let me know! It is the best and you guys are going to LOVE it!